Reason to Sing???

Do you need a reason to sing?
I mean imagine this: You’ve just heard this great song with very nice tune, and you like it very much. The song goes like “It must have been love, but it’s over now. It must have been good, but I lost it somehow… (Roxette)”…or it goes like “You broke my heart. I hate you and I will kill you. I’ll kill you to pieces, but it’s a waste of time. Because you’ll just love hell so much… la la la… (it’s my lyric if I’ve ever been a singer. Guess it won’t make a top hit, will it?”).

But somehow, no matter how charming the tune is you just can’t sing it because, reality check, you’ve got a happy-prosperous life and a gorgeous-sweet-loyal-loving girl/boyfriend!?! The song just doesn’t seem right to sing it, right?
Lately (like a week or two), I kinda like Dido’s songs, especially Here with Me and Life for Rent. The Here with Me goes like…
Oh I am what I am

I'll do what I want

But I can't hide

I won't go

I won't sleep

I can't breathe

Until you're resting here with me

I won't leave

I can't hide

I cannot be

Until you're resting here with me

Now you see why it’s factually wrong to sing this song? Until you’re resting here with me? Ha! Technically speaking, HE is here, alright!
Then there is Life for Rent song that sings like this…
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again
I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Although I’m at the moment renting an apartment, consciously, I know where my home is. So, again, it just doesn't feel right to sing the song out loud (aside from the fact that my neighbors would think I’m nut or/and pitiful).
Or this song called Kukatakan dengan Indah from Peterpan (God, I love the tune!!!) that says…
Kukatakan dengan indah, dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka, menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa yang berbeda, mungkin ku salah
Mengartikannya, yang kurasa cinta
Tetapi hatiku, selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu, selalu meninggikanmu
Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu
Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri
Poetic as it is, still I’ll be a heartless ungrateful wife if in the middle of my mumble grumble for the love of my life (read: my hubby, and yes, he is the love of my life because if he were not the love of my life, we wouldn’t be in Japan together. It would be me alone in Japan. Or not alone but still not together with him in Japan. You know what I mean, right?!?), I label him like that of the song…eh?
Even my everlasting-most-favorite-inspiring-ironic song of Sting –Message in the Bottle- has a line that says I sent an SOS to the world …Whoa! That chills me. Me? Sending an SOS to the world? That must be my doomed day!



So, I’m running out of songs! I can’t sing my type of tune because instinctively I fall for the sad-lyric-kind of songs. And... I am not a person with the Whole-New-World sort of songs, either.
I’d love to sing my favorite Andrea Bocelli’s song Con Te Partiro (English: I’ll go with you) but I’m already here with my ‘You’.
If only I could sing any song without waking up my conscience…(sigh)…
Well, how about you? Do you need a reason to sing a particular song?
May be I’ll just stick with Josh Groban’s though his voice reminds me a lot of my friend, Barb, when she sang loudly in the thought-to-be empty hall at the American Embassy in Jakarta. Quite embarrassing and still gives me nightmares!